Maybe I am still too hopeful of life. I am patient. I can understand some stuff might not go as I want.
But I still think we can fight to build and meet our expectations. We can live with less, and try to create. I am working hard in 2019 to build a creative 2020. I am using time in the present to have time in the future. But still, the feelings are all there. A hot mess.
A cool concept to have in mind:
I will admit some hopes are dead ends. But not all of them. I do not believe crushing hope as medicine for nothing. You gonna be an unhappy vegetable in the end. This can effectively end the rage, but you need to understand how to create and where to deposit hope.
Do not expect anything from outside. Your hopes should be on yourself. Get angry with yourself, move your ass. If you can't: wait. Breath. Listen to the right music. Make long walks. Try to save some money. And try moving your ass again next time.
Put your dark energy to work for you. Do not throw it on beloved or close ones. Energy is energy. Good or bad. Use it.
Be smart. The best you can.
